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So, I did that personality test Jontay posted.

And I'm an ISFJ: Introverted, Sensing, Feeling, Judging.


A lot of what it says is so true about me. A few things I don't comply with--but I mean, really. People are incredibly complex so there's no way it could describe everyone individually.

But it is kind of weird how accurate some of it is...
Here are some quotes from the websites about ISFJ's that fit me:

-The primary desire of the Protector Guardian is to be of service to others, but here "service" means not so much furnishing others with the necessities of life (the Provider's concern), as guarding others against life's pitfalls and perils, that is, seeing to their safety and security.

***-They are not as outgoing and talkative as the Providers, except with close friends and relatives. With these they can chat tirelessly about the ups and downs in their lives, moving (like all the Guardians) from topic to topic as they talk over their everyday concerns. However, their shyness with strangers is often misjudged as stiffness, even coldness, when in truth these Protectors are warm-hearted and sympathetic, giving happily of themselves to those in need.

-Their quietness ought really to be seen as an expression, not of coldness, but of their sincerity and seriousness of purpose.

- unusual talent for executing routines

-Ironically, because they prove over and over that they can be relied on for their loyalty and unstinting, high-quality work, those around them often take them for granted--even take advantage of them.

*(haha, craig)-if any of their nearest and dearest depart from the straight-and-narrow, it causes the ISFJ major embarrassment: the closer the relationship and the more public the act, the more intense the embarrassment

-Like most Is, ISFJs have a few, close friends. They are extremely loyal to these, and are ready to provide emotional and practical support at a moment's notice. (However, like most Fs they hate confrontation)
(um--YES.)


man..

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This isn't about the show itself or how great it was, but.. it's something I wanted to put into words, so it'd be awesome if you read it. :-)

I wanted to write that I went to a Coheed & Cambria/Linkin Park show last night. And it was incredible. Mostly Coheed. But my point is this...Linkin Park did a few songs where it was just the two "famous" guys, one playing piano and the other singing. With just like, two spotlights. And as I watched them sing and play with all their hearts, I couldn't help but ache knowing how much they could love Jesus if they gave him a chance. And who knows, maybe they DO know Jesus. I am no judge. But just going with the odds, here.

But they sing with such passion about wanting someone to come home to. About wanting that comfort in their lives. About wanting war to stop and feeling pain and love for broken people...a lot of the songs I heard were about that. One of their songs even sings the simple chorus of: "Amen...Amen...Amen..." And is titled "hands held high." And as they held their hands high and the lead singer sang "Amen," with all his soul, I couldn't help but fight back tears because I know what he is searching for and I prayed with all my heart that he would find Him. With all that love, and with all that aching because of the brokenness of the world, i could just feel how great those people could be used for the Glory of God. And my heart broke a little that they probably don't know Him.

But maybe they do. And maybe that's why they sing with so much conviction. Who knows. But Looking at them and back at the crowd, I definitely had an overwhelming ache for the souls of everyone around me...

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thank you for reading if you got this far... :)

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I miss playing guitar. I am going to do it more often. I wish I had more opportunity to.

Trying to figure out what to do with your life is a little stressful.

Good thing God knows how it will turn out. Because I don't.
Which actually brings up interesting thoughts of predestination & sovereignty that I haven't quite read or thought about long enough yet to give a proper analysis-blog on.

Anyways. My family is coming today and I'm happy about that.

I'm going to write a better blog soon. Really.